Understanding My Flesh

At the young tender age of 5 she introduced herself to me. The invitation was sent from hell, and it was sent to me as a comforter like Jesus was to Christians of the world. The demon was given instructions to comfort me like my mother.  This that dwells within me is destroying me from the inside out. I’m too familiar with want it wants to do with me and to me. I pray daily for peace within my spirit, but as I pray it causes me to thirst for what I see, and for the things I can’t see. Can you imagine that at the young age of 5 they walk with me, they talk with me, and even control me, as they move me to act out what I can’t prove to no man. The only ones who really know what I am and who I am despite the gifts have to know and have a clear understanding of this demon.  You see your spirit is like my spirit yet un-manifested. Each relationship I have had I make every attempt to introduce or explain my demons and my pain. On the surface I may appear as a typical oversexed middle age man who has been suffering for over 4 decades.  I am a prime example of an entity that cohabitates with the confines of the supernatural below this earth and above the ground. There is known and un-known knowledge of humans like me exist, or should I say not to many are open to share what dwells in the mind of a sexual being. If you are not in touch with your sexuality or know what dwells beneath your carnal surface, your will remain in the dark of understanding the external you, and the spiritual or demonic you. 

To know me is to understand me, to understand me is to know the various sides of my many dimensions of my intellect, my level of sex, and the forces I carry or I allow you to see as part of who I really am. If the mortals of this universe could spend the day viewing what I experience through my eyes, as I begin to secrete ecstasy from my loins and each one that I see in person, or in print causes my mind pause for me to breath deep as I imagine her naked and ready and have no clue that its about to go down. The skin tone from Brazilian to South African I want it all.  The thirst does not mean that the one who I have chosen to be the wife is lacking, but I want to include the wife and the spirit together.  The expectation, and the outcome, will never manifest but in my dreams they are all options because I control the outcome.

I ask my wife to pray for her husband. She is unaware and clueless how deep these demons summons her husband’s flesh daily. Explaining the forbidden union of spirit and flesh is truly inconceivable to those who can’t understand how strong the demonic forces are deep imbedded in her husband and friend.  To fully understand and accept it may never happen but yet it exists among our modern times.

The next time you look into the eyes of man like me, be aware and pay close attention to the spirit I could transfer to you if you desire to taste this from all who dwells in this carnal demonic host I call a man.

Be careful and cautious, I’m seeking to use you as a host to further my destruction.

She’s Married With No Husband "Un-Loved" by "He-Promised"

 

The preconceived thought that marriage should last forever is the desire of many men and women. When a woman meets a man instantly she knows if she wants a relationship that will one day lead to marriage. Then on the other hand you have some women their only desire is to have fun and have little to no expectation, or accountability to no one man. When a real woman finds a man whom she feels is her life mate, she will begin to develop a true friendship, which turns into a real love relationship, and eventually a life that women fantasize about having. 30 years ago her name was “Un-Loved” when she met this man who for 10 years was her boyfriend and became her husband. When “Un-Loved” met “He-Promised” she thought that this man would be a great husband and friend. Early in their relationship she was young and so very beautiful he was handsome but he had no idea how deep the love was that “Un-Loved” had for him.  You see when a woman of her caliber connects with a man like “He Promised” he should have known she was something special. Since the beginning of time men have always have taken love like “Un-Loved” for granted. “Un-Loved” was so beautiful she was breath taken, sweet, loving and very affectionate but she was young, and had only started learning just how beautiful she was and the power she had when it came to actually getting what she needed.  After 10 years of dating “Un-Loved and “He-Promised” got married. During the 10 year court ship “Un-Loved” had developed into a real woman with much more maturity.  Un-Loved mind, and her body had blossomed and “He-Promised” after 10 years of courtship, should have really step up to the plate when it came to fulfilling the needs of his very beautiful girlfriend turned wife.  Early on in the relationship he made many promises that only was in the beginning but over time he did not have what it took to satisfy “Un-Loved”.  “Un-Loved” at no time changed on her expressing her love for “He-Promised”.  For all the years of their courtship and marriage “Un-Loved” never changed.  Over the years “Un-Loved” became ill and suffered will arthritis.  After being diagnosed her focus was not only to understand and accept her diagnosis but as a wife she never forgot her role as “He-Promised” wife. At this point in her life “Un-Loved” as woman wanted comfort from her husband only got her needs met just for little while. She wanted to know that he would be there in her time of need. Early on in the beginning of her sickness he was there but as time went on, he pulled back. When a woman or a man gets sick the want to know that whom they are with will support them and love them despite them being sick. After that devastating news about having rheumatoid arthritis, and diabetes was another sickness that is share with by the doctors of this Jersey Beauty.  Overtime the diabetes eventually took one of “Un-Loved” legs above the knee. After experiencing a couple of medical issues “Un-Loved” had remembered that her husband had stop expressing his love before she lost her leg.  “He-Promised” had definitely fallen out of love with “Un-Loved” but she really did not pay it much attention, but it had happened.  After time when on “Un-Loved” had lost her second leg and that is when she noticed that her husband and friend of 30 years had her feeling like and “Un-Loved” wife but she did not want to believe it.  Things had gotten so bad that she had ask for he husband to leave only after 5 months to ask him to come back home.  After doing that “Un-Loved” should have never asked her husband to come back home, but she was missing him.  After “Un-Loved” ask her husband to come home for the second time, it was the worst thing she had ever done.  Hell “Un-Loved” could not take it and she moved to another state.  After she moved she was really missing her husband and was hoping he would move to the state she was in to show that he cared and he really wanted his wife and family.  He-Promised” would text, sometimes, and even drive several hours, only to act like he cared and wanted his wife.  “Un-Loved” would get tired with this because it was heavy on her heart.

“Un-Loved” wants love from her husband “He-Promised”. “He-Promised” to love her, honor her; cherish her, to sickness and in health.  “Un-Loved” continues to get stronger and is learning to empower herself with the love of God.

Love should never be given based on if you have all of your limbs, or become ill. A woman needs Love, Love and much understanding.