Shadows Of My Mind

The shadows on the walls of his mind remain dark for the unknown. The unknown is the love, attention he once had yet he took for granted it turned into rejection. The journey down a road of loneliness was caused by an impoverished lifestyle he had no control over but he had to accept. The shadows of the past remain just below the surface of his thoughts never really allowing the outside world to penetrate his deepest thoughts and emotions. He used his charisma and his charm to over compensate for him lacking the validation he long for from his mother who had no clue how deep the pain ran down into his soul. His longing to connect with a false sense of what he thought was love help further fuel his pain of addiction. His addictions and the demons of carnality he understood at an early age but had no outlet but to make every attempt to quench the thirst by feeding off of the pheromones he could smell in the wind in his sleep. The very essence of his desires as a child he knew was not normal. The spirit he first identified at a young age when he first felt alive and had to feed like a vampire on the hunt for his first feeding.  The feeding he had to get from his first victim needed to be fulfilled. After getting a taste of inevitability that spirit was full grown but it had to cohabitate with his child like ways until the time was right. You know a spirit can only dwell in a host that is willing to allow it to stay until maturity. You see he his ability to inhale that SWEETEST PHEROMONE known to mankind is his life mission.

I must go now the shadow on the walls of my mind is thirsty and wants to quench his thirst and he’s seeking another level to this spirit that wants to explode. You see to get relief from your pain you have to identify the issue before you attempt to get help.

What does your shadow say to your mind and are you acting out?

Loud Silence

What does silence sounds like to a man or a woman who wants to someone to listen to their cries of their needs and wants of love and validation. The loud cries that has no sound can truly be herd by those who supposed to hear the need of their significant other. So many men and women can hear but refuse to hear what may have been caused by them in the first place. Than lack of care, concern, will have an outcome than can destroy trust, intimacy inside and outside the home.  What loud, silent cries have you been entrusted to pay attention to but have ignored.

"Forgiveness, Redemption, Restoration"

The Poet says….Forgiveness from a wife or girlfriend is sometimes verbalized for the moment until she realizes that the pain was far greater than she could have ever imagined from what was done to her. There is no set time on how long the forgiveness process takes. During the recovery time of the woman's pain she makes every attempt to allow her heart and mind regain the trust of her mate. The husband or the boyfriend will have a long journey before he is allowed to truly share the space of his wife or girlfriend again, because of her broken heart.  There are very mixed emotions from the woman, and sometimes during the recovery process she feels scorned, lonely, she will desire the emotional connection she once had with her mate. Because she has a wall of protection of being hurt again from her mate, her pheromones secret “Openness” of acceptance from other men. Her walk is different, her conversation is different, and her intimacy is different. She is having sex with her mate, but desires to make love eventually with which she seeks attention.  In the blink of an eye, she has done something that is totally against what she believes.  In the mist of her recovery, and allowing the other men to fill her time and space up she has less of an emotional connection from her husband or boyfriend.  You see once a woman gets emotionally attached with another man it is almost impossible to allow the forgiveness and the redemption to continue for her husband or boyfriend. The things she did with her husband, she is now doing with the other men, and sometimes it’s more than one man, to help fill the void of loneliness.

The constant denial of what she is doing only fuels the behavior, that is wrong, but not wrong to her because now her needs are being fulfilled all over again.  In the mist of emotional rollercoaster she still has insecurities, and expectations from her spouse or significant other. She will continue to search for signs that he continues to be unfaithful. The husband or the boyfriend truly has forgiveness in his hurt, and wants his place back in her heart, but sometimes in life the second chance may have been just too much to handle, so it never happens.

In the end the wounded relationships will either survive, they will die if they both are not trying to truly reconcile.

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