The shadows on the walls of his mind remain dark for the
unknown. The unknown is the love, attention he once had yet he took for granted
it turned into rejection. The journey down a road of loneliness was caused by
an impoverished lifestyle he had no control over but he had to accept. The
shadows of the past remain just below the surface of his thoughts never really
allowing the outside world to penetrate his deepest thoughts and emotions. He
used his charisma and his charm to over compensate for him lacking the
validation he long for from his mother who had no clue how deep the pain ran
down into his soul. His longing to connect with a false sense of what he
thought was love help further fuel his pain of addiction. His addictions and
the demons of carnality he understood at an early age but had no outlet but to
make every attempt to quench the thirst by feeding off of the pheromones he
could smell in the wind in his sleep. The very essence of his desires as a
child he knew was not normal. The spirit he first identified at a young age when
he first felt alive and had to feed like a vampire on the hunt for his first
feeding. The feeding he had to get from
his first victim needed to be fulfilled. After getting a taste of inevitability
that spirit was full grown but it had to cohabitate with his child like ways
until the time was right. You know a spirit can only dwell in a host that is
willing to allow it to stay until maturity. You see he his ability to inhale
that SWEETEST PHEROMONE known to mankind is his life mission.
I must go now the shadow on the walls of my mind is thirsty
and wants to quench his thirst and he’s seeking another level to this spirit
that wants to explode. You see to get relief from your pain you have to
identify the issue before you attempt to get help.
What does your shadow say to your mind and are you acting
out?
