Understanding My Flesh

At the young tender age of 5 she introduced herself to me. The invitation was sent from hell, and it was sent to me as a comforter like Jesus was to Christians of the world. The demon was given instructions to comfort me like my mother.  This that dwells within me is destroying me from the inside out. I’m too familiar with want it wants to do with me and to me. I pray daily for peace within my spirit, but as I pray it causes me to thirst for what I see, and for the things I can’t see. Can you imagine that at the young age of 5 they walk with me, they talk with me, and even control me, as they move me to act out what I can’t prove to no man. The only ones who really know what I am and who I am despite the gifts have to know and have a clear understanding of this demon.  You see your spirit is like my spirit yet un-manifested. Each relationship I have had I make every attempt to introduce or explain my demons and my pain. On the surface I may appear as a typical oversexed middle age man who has been suffering for over 4 decades.  I am a prime example of an entity that cohabitates with the confines of the supernatural below this earth and above the ground. There is known and un-known knowledge of humans like me exist, or should I say not to many are open to share what dwells in the mind of a sexual being. If you are not in touch with your sexuality or know what dwells beneath your carnal surface, your will remain in the dark of understanding the external you, and the spiritual or demonic you. 

To know me is to understand me, to understand me is to know the various sides of my many dimensions of my intellect, my level of sex, and the forces I carry or I allow you to see as part of who I really am. If the mortals of this universe could spend the day viewing what I experience through my eyes, as I begin to secrete ecstasy from my loins and each one that I see in person, or in print causes my mind pause for me to breath deep as I imagine her naked and ready and have no clue that its about to go down. The skin tone from Brazilian to South African I want it all.  The thirst does not mean that the one who I have chosen to be the wife is lacking, but I want to include the wife and the spirit together.  The expectation, and the outcome, will never manifest but in my dreams they are all options because I control the outcome.

I ask my wife to pray for her husband. She is unaware and clueless how deep these demons summons her husband’s flesh daily. Explaining the forbidden union of spirit and flesh is truly inconceivable to those who can’t understand how strong the demonic forces are deep imbedded in her husband and friend.  To fully understand and accept it may never happen but yet it exists among our modern times.

The next time you look into the eyes of man like me, be aware and pay close attention to the spirit I could transfer to you if you desire to taste this from all who dwells in this carnal demonic host I call a man.

Be careful and cautious, I’m seeking to use you as a host to further my destruction.

She’s Married With No Husband "Un-Loved" by "He-Promised"

 

The preconceived thought that marriage should last forever is the desire of many men and women. When a woman meets a man instantly she knows if she wants a relationship that will one day lead to marriage. Then on the other hand you have some women their only desire is to have fun and have little to no expectation, or accountability to no one man. When a real woman finds a man whom she feels is her life mate, she will begin to develop a true friendship, which turns into a real love relationship, and eventually a life that women fantasize about having. 30 years ago her name was “Un-Loved” when she met this man who for 10 years was her boyfriend and became her husband. When “Un-Loved” met “He-Promised” she thought that this man would be a great husband and friend. Early in their relationship she was young and so very beautiful he was handsome but he had no idea how deep the love was that “Un-Loved” had for him.  You see when a woman of her caliber connects with a man like “He Promised” he should have known she was something special. Since the beginning of time men have always have taken love like “Un-Loved” for granted. “Un-Loved” was so beautiful she was breath taken, sweet, loving and very affectionate but she was young, and had only started learning just how beautiful she was and the power she had when it came to actually getting what she needed.  After 10 years of dating “Un-Loved and “He-Promised” got married. During the 10 year court ship “Un-Loved” had developed into a real woman with much more maturity.  Un-Loved mind, and her body had blossomed and “He-Promised” after 10 years of courtship, should have really step up to the plate when it came to fulfilling the needs of his very beautiful girlfriend turned wife.  Early on in the relationship he made many promises that only was in the beginning but over time he did not have what it took to satisfy “Un-Loved”.  “Un-Loved” at no time changed on her expressing her love for “He-Promised”.  For all the years of their courtship and marriage “Un-Loved” never changed.  Over the years “Un-Loved” became ill and suffered will arthritis.  After being diagnosed her focus was not only to understand and accept her diagnosis but as a wife she never forgot her role as “He-Promised” wife. At this point in her life “Un-Loved” as woman wanted comfort from her husband only got her needs met just for little while. She wanted to know that he would be there in her time of need. Early on in the beginning of her sickness he was there but as time went on, he pulled back. When a woman or a man gets sick the want to know that whom they are with will support them and love them despite them being sick. After that devastating news about having rheumatoid arthritis, and diabetes was another sickness that is share with by the doctors of this Jersey Beauty.  Overtime the diabetes eventually took one of “Un-Loved” legs above the knee. After experiencing a couple of medical issues “Un-Loved” had remembered that her husband had stop expressing his love before she lost her leg.  “He-Promised” had definitely fallen out of love with “Un-Loved” but she really did not pay it much attention, but it had happened.  After time when on “Un-Loved” had lost her second leg and that is when she noticed that her husband and friend of 30 years had her feeling like and “Un-Loved” wife but she did not want to believe it.  Things had gotten so bad that she had ask for he husband to leave only after 5 months to ask him to come back home.  After doing that “Un-Loved” should have never asked her husband to come back home, but she was missing him.  After “Un-Loved” ask her husband to come home for the second time, it was the worst thing she had ever done.  Hell “Un-Loved” could not take it and she moved to another state.  After she moved she was really missing her husband and was hoping he would move to the state she was in to show that he cared and he really wanted his wife and family.  He-Promised” would text, sometimes, and even drive several hours, only to act like he cared and wanted his wife.  “Un-Loved” would get tired with this because it was heavy on her heart.

“Un-Loved” wants love from her husband “He-Promised”. “He-Promised” to love her, honor her; cherish her, to sickness and in health.  “Un-Loved” continues to get stronger and is learning to empower herself with the love of God.

Love should never be given based on if you have all of your limbs, or become ill. A woman needs Love, Love and much understanding.

Shadows Of My Mind

The shadows on the walls of his mind remain dark for the unknown. The unknown is the love, attention he once had yet he took for granted it turned into rejection. The journey down a road of loneliness was caused by an impoverished lifestyle he had no control over but he had to accept. The shadows of the past remain just below the surface of his thoughts never really allowing the outside world to penetrate his deepest thoughts and emotions. He used his charisma and his charm to over compensate for him lacking the validation he long for from his mother who had no clue how deep the pain ran down into his soul. His longing to connect with a false sense of what he thought was love help further fuel his pain of addiction. His addictions and the demons of carnality he understood at an early age but had no outlet but to make every attempt to quench the thirst by feeding off of the pheromones he could smell in the wind in his sleep. The very essence of his desires as a child he knew was not normal. The spirit he first identified at a young age when he first felt alive and had to feed like a vampire on the hunt for his first feeding.  The feeding he had to get from his first victim needed to be fulfilled. After getting a taste of inevitability that spirit was full grown but it had to cohabitate with his child like ways until the time was right. You know a spirit can only dwell in a host that is willing to allow it to stay until maturity. You see he his ability to inhale that SWEETEST PHEROMONE known to mankind is his life mission.

I must go now the shadow on the walls of my mind is thirsty and wants to quench his thirst and he’s seeking another level to this spirit that wants to explode. You see to get relief from your pain you have to identify the issue before you attempt to get help.

What does your shadow say to your mind and are you acting out?

Loud Silence

What does silence sounds like to a man or a woman who wants to someone to listen to their cries of their needs and wants of love and validation. The loud cries that has no sound can truly be herd by those who supposed to hear the need of their significant other. So many men and women can hear but refuse to hear what may have been caused by them in the first place. Than lack of care, concern, will have an outcome than can destroy trust, intimacy inside and outside the home.  What loud, silent cries have you been entrusted to pay attention to but have ignored.

Mid-Life Romance Restoration

 Mid-Life romance can remain the same if couples would both commit to keeping the relationship alive. Of course do to the body chemistry forever changing, it may have changed over the years but keeping up with health will be key for this to manifest in a good way. Both the husband and the wife will have to understand and re-evaluate and figure out what has changed, and use that it to base what changes will be made.  Prior to taking on the task of re-evaluation of the couple’s relationship, seeking a therapist that specializes in marriages would be the most recommend.  Yes, I know a lot of men don’t believe in therapist, or therapy and anything they stand for or sitting in front of someone sharing their most intimate activity to a complete stranger. It wont be easy, but once the couples can agree on going that is only half the battle. You see by them both going and being very honest about what their individualized thoughts are about romance it can only help them move forward into the future. Most men and women do struggle with getting older. If you can take a moment to remember what you observed about your mother and father went through could be used as a guideline if what you remembered was somewhat positive.

Couples can close the emotional gap by recognizing that it is, and can be a problem if they want to continue to have a healthy romantic marriage, with great and satisfying sex.

Now go and have one of several meeting with a therapist and come back to this post a share a little of what you may have learned about you, or about your spouse as a couple, and let the world hear your success story.

The Next Time You Meet

Meeting a woman for the very first time should be a very memorable and unique experience that both the woman and the man should never forget. Just thinking about how you met one another, remembering the conversation you had together as well as the meal. The reasons, your expectations ans knowing if you are meant to be friends or lovers. When you get a visual on "The Who"and "The Why" then your intentions are in your mind even if your actions are deceiful in nature. Generally men preditorial in nature, and women follow in a close 2nd.  So the next time you are approached, or you are doing the approaching let your actions be true and clear.

Soul of A Woman

The Poet says…..The souls of women have been consumed and lost in time due to the lack of commitment. False commitments of love, romance, and a life that is promised but broken before the journey begins, causes pain.  A woman’s soul hangs in the balance before she meets the man she has been destined to be with and her soul yearns for what some men proclaim to know but have no idea. The pain that is caused by some men runs so deep that only time can heal. Souls are not meant to be broken, but they are meant to be joined with others for unity and understanding.

"Forgiveness, Redemption, Restoration"

The Poet says….Forgiveness from a wife or girlfriend is sometimes verbalized for the moment until she realizes that the pain was far greater than she could have ever imagined from what was done to her. There is no set time on how long the forgiveness process takes. During the recovery time of the woman's pain she makes every attempt to allow her heart and mind regain the trust of her mate. The husband or the boyfriend will have a long journey before he is allowed to truly share the space of his wife or girlfriend again, because of her broken heart.  There are very mixed emotions from the woman, and sometimes during the recovery process she feels scorned, lonely, she will desire the emotional connection she once had with her mate. Because she has a wall of protection of being hurt again from her mate, her pheromones secret “Openness” of acceptance from other men. Her walk is different, her conversation is different, and her intimacy is different. She is having sex with her mate, but desires to make love eventually with which she seeks attention.  In the blink of an eye, she has done something that is totally against what she believes.  In the mist of her recovery, and allowing the other men to fill her time and space up she has less of an emotional connection from her husband or boyfriend.  You see once a woman gets emotionally attached with another man it is almost impossible to allow the forgiveness and the redemption to continue for her husband or boyfriend. The things she did with her husband, she is now doing with the other men, and sometimes it’s more than one man, to help fill the void of loneliness.

The constant denial of what she is doing only fuels the behavior, that is wrong, but not wrong to her because now her needs are being fulfilled all over again.  In the mist of emotional rollercoaster she still has insecurities, and expectations from her spouse or significant other. She will continue to search for signs that he continues to be unfaithful. The husband or the boyfriend truly has forgiveness in his hurt, and wants his place back in her heart, but sometimes in life the second chance may have been just too much to handle, so it never happens.

In the end the wounded relationships will either survive, they will die if they both are not trying to truly reconcile.

“What do you think, let me hear from some of our readers”.