Understanding My Flesh

At the young tender age of 5 she introduced herself to me. The invitation was sent from hell, and it was sent to me as a comforter like Jesus was to Christians of the world. The demon was given instructions to comfort me like my mother.  This that dwells within me is destroying me from the inside out. I’m too familiar with want it wants to do with me and to me. I pray daily for peace within my spirit, but as I pray it causes me to thirst for what I see, and for the things I can’t see. Can you imagine that at the young age of 5 they walk with me, they talk with me, and even control me, as they move me to act out what I can’t prove to no man. The only ones who really know what I am and who I am despite the gifts have to know and have a clear understanding of this demon.  You see your spirit is like my spirit yet un-manifested. Each relationship I have had I make every attempt to introduce or explain my demons and my pain. On the surface I may appear as a typical oversexed middle age man who has been suffering for over 4 decades.  I am a prime example of an entity that cohabitates with the confines of the supernatural below this earth and above the ground. There is known and un-known knowledge of humans like me exist, or should I say not to many are open to share what dwells in the mind of a sexual being. If you are not in touch with your sexuality or know what dwells beneath your carnal surface, your will remain in the dark of understanding the external you, and the spiritual or demonic you. 

To know me is to understand me, to understand me is to know the various sides of my many dimensions of my intellect, my level of sex, and the forces I carry or I allow you to see as part of who I really am. If the mortals of this universe could spend the day viewing what I experience through my eyes, as I begin to secrete ecstasy from my loins and each one that I see in person, or in print causes my mind pause for me to breath deep as I imagine her naked and ready and have no clue that its about to go down. The skin tone from Brazilian to South African I want it all.  The thirst does not mean that the one who I have chosen to be the wife is lacking, but I want to include the wife and the spirit together.  The expectation, and the outcome, will never manifest but in my dreams they are all options because I control the outcome.

I ask my wife to pray for her husband. She is unaware and clueless how deep these demons summons her husband’s flesh daily. Explaining the forbidden union of spirit and flesh is truly inconceivable to those who can’t understand how strong the demonic forces are deep imbedded in her husband and friend.  To fully understand and accept it may never happen but yet it exists among our modern times.

The next time you look into the eyes of man like me, be aware and pay close attention to the spirit I could transfer to you if you desire to taste this from all who dwells in this carnal demonic host I call a man.

Be careful and cautious, I’m seeking to use you as a host to further my destruction.

PTSD My Therapist and Me The Forbidden Fruit.

As I sit in the sand with the reflection of the moon guiding my thoughts to the tips of my fingers thinking of the pheromones and intimate moans of my desires to get deep inside of what I thirst for daily is driving me to a place of mental ejaculation. Just the very thought of how good and wet that angelic pussy can get just before my tongue hits the tip of her clit that I want to suck before put my stamen deep inside her wet walls, and the therapeutic mind fuck she gives me at each time I have my therapy sessions of visual pleasure, as I sit on couch in the office of my therapist watching her twitch from just me sharing how my thoughts and spiritual transformation of my metaphoric mental instability of what makes me explode without a touch. As Sanjee ask me of how my thoughts were since our last meeting, I just look, and inhale, and stared at the camel-toe of the imprint of her Indian Pussy of what she wants me to touch in those panties that are so fucking wet and tight. Her thoughts of the forbidden fruit she knows as a therapist she should not have or desire to touch. You see I know despite her treating me for my “PTSD” (Pussy Thoughts & Sexual Dysfunction). Sanjee knows as she is treating me and teaching me that my thoughts of her 6”1 inch frame wants me to bend her over, and drop and spit in her ass, as I put my index finger inside her wet pussy, for her and I to share a taste of what she is treating me for.  In the private meetings we have weekly she almost admits of inserting her long fingers in and out of her pussy as she thinks of me.  As she squirts from my treatments, her self gratifications secretes all over her inner thighs, and on the sheets and towels she has to put down as she attempts to take a break from this mental, therapeutic relationship from therapist to patient is truly a violation of Doctor Client Privilege. The privilege for Sanjee is being able to treat a client that is so into his awareness of how long he’s been genetically fucked up from what “PUSSY” has done to his mind and to his flesh that he can’t get full satisfaction of getting his thirst quenched. Quiet as it might be kept this relationship with Sanjee developed with her client because of his narrative description of his mental destruction triggered and stirred up a side of Sanjee that she thought she had suppressed for many years.  Sanjee was not only his therapist but she also to had the same dark secret he had, they both had it.  When Sanjee’s client started sharing his story she was able to relate to his thoughts and desires to get fulfillment just like her patient.  The very first time Sanjee met with her very unique client he got her so aroused that she became flush red with emotional satisfaction.  The very pitch of his voice and his choice of words made her so wet that when he left her office, she went into her private room and pulled out her 91/2 inches or pure pleasure, closed her eyes and thought about her patient fucking her so long and so hard she would call out his name in her native language.

After many sessions of therapy with her client, Sanjee shared her story with a colleague who she thought she could trust.  Over time she found out that she could trust no one but her wet pussy that it would squirt each time she had sexual thoughts about the painful past as well ass her client physical attraction, and how smooth his cock was, just before she sucked her own pussy juices off of his cock and before he went to ass to mouth with his dick.

The next time you go to see your therapist be very careful that your “PTSD” (Pussy Thoughts & Sexual Dysfunction) turn into a taste of forbidden fruit.

If you are wet or your dick is hard that means that Sanjee and her client and you all will sleep well tonight.

Unitl she meets with him next week, Sanjee plans and orgy she knows could possibly cause her to loose her license.

Shadows Of My Mind

The shadows on the walls of his mind remain dark for the unknown. The unknown is the love, attention he once had yet he took for granted it turned into rejection. The journey down a road of loneliness was caused by an impoverished lifestyle he had no control over but he had to accept. The shadows of the past remain just below the surface of his thoughts never really allowing the outside world to penetrate his deepest thoughts and emotions. He used his charisma and his charm to over compensate for him lacking the validation he long for from his mother who had no clue how deep the pain ran down into his soul. His longing to connect with a false sense of what he thought was love help further fuel his pain of addiction. His addictions and the demons of carnality he understood at an early age but had no outlet but to make every attempt to quench the thirst by feeding off of the pheromones he could smell in the wind in his sleep. The very essence of his desires as a child he knew was not normal. The spirit he first identified at a young age when he first felt alive and had to feed like a vampire on the hunt for his first feeding.  The feeding he had to get from his first victim needed to be fulfilled. After getting a taste of inevitability that spirit was full grown but it had to cohabitate with his child like ways until the time was right. You know a spirit can only dwell in a host that is willing to allow it to stay until maturity. You see he his ability to inhale that SWEETEST PHEROMONE known to mankind is his life mission.

I must go now the shadow on the walls of my mind is thirsty and wants to quench his thirst and he’s seeking another level to this spirit that wants to explode. You see to get relief from your pain you have to identify the issue before you attempt to get help.

What does your shadow say to your mind and are you acting out?

Taste Yourself

What is it about the law of attraction from a woman to a man? Well by the time you get finish reading this story you will have a homework assignment, then you will truly know.  You see a woman that is in touch with her body and secretions knows exactly what men desire and that is to taste what runs from the walls of her vagina like a fountain of running water. Wait, wait before you start thinking this about something nasty, but its from the mind of many men. The sweet aromatic smell of her juices is what he smells as he approaches for the very first time. The only men who know what it really is are the ones who have studied the female anatomy or who have ever tried to truly understand its more than just putting his penis inside you trying to reach his false since of satisfaction of ejaculation up and out, hell no.  This process is more deeper than than that. You see ladies as you go through out your day, you are secreting pheromones all day. The secretions will increase if you have a visual or a mental thought of what you had it the past or some man that was really attractive as you went about your day. Some women know that their sex is good, and they know how to work their body right. There are some women who also knows that they only know how to have just your more traditional intercourse that is just basic, but can be pleasing to the man. The woman with this self awareness of what she is working with knows that every man she has sex with, that he will return. This woman not only knows how to move but she knows what he wants to taste her real bad. This woman is so talented with her technique, her actions are so hypnotic most of the men have had a woman like her before. Your sitting here reading, and thinking hell I know how to make love, or sex my man up real good.  But you really want to ask yourself, do you, do you really know how to satisfy your man or the men in your life. Its late, you met this man an your wet with anticipation and curiosity of how will he make you feel after he took your clothes off, he could not get your panties off. You  were so hot he pulled your panties to the side, so that he could lick and taste your liquid gold juices.  Before he took your panties off you climaxed twice, and each time he would put his tongue inside your vagina and fold it in half so that when you got ready to CUM the 3rd time he's letting you know he want's to get every drop in his mouth.  Yes by this time you are gasping for air and he has not even put his penis deep inside to scratch what you have been wanting. 

Ok, that's enough....now do you remember earlier in this story i told you that you were going to have some homework. Well now that you are wet as hell, take your hand and insert just 1 of your fingers and insert it far as you can into your hot hole and taste what he ate. You see after tasting yourself you will understand a little bit better of what he taste and why some men really truly love to inhale, your pheromones and taste them.

Now get up and shower and wash that body, and go to sleep with a smile on your face.  

Voices, Choices, Do You Understand

LADIES.........In life you have choices, and you have voices, you choose to do what you think is right and wrong with your relationships. You also have voices that love to tell you what you should do, or should not do from someone who has been alone since the disciples was on earth. You see ladies if you want to find the truth about a man, ask a man that you trust that and you are not intimate with, or have no desire to be intimate with. Stop going on your assumption on what you think a man will do or how he thinks. You see ladies you want to really know how to get deep with this. First, your keeping him is not about how hot and wet your "Cat"" Sweet Bread" or whatever you call your "Vee Jay Jay" can really get.  A close friend of the Poet's years ago said that when a man cheats, or steps outside the home for sexual needs, it is not about the "Vee Jay Jay", The "Vee Jay Jay" is just one of the rewards he gets while seeking someone to talk to. You see ladies, first stop barking at your husband, man, boyfriend, boo, or friend, or whatever his title is.  Remember while you talking at him crazy ass hell, she is not, she is "Listening" to him consoling him, comforting him, and doing just the opposite of what you are not doing for him or to him. You know ladies you got to understand, despite him being saved, religious, Holy, Mormon, JW, Muslim, etc, the man process is the same. Sometimes his not being faithful has nothing to do with you, but his low self-esteem but him wanting to feel accepted, and sexual acceptance is self fulfilling.  Learn to hear what he has to say, also try and hear the things he is not saying, pay close attention.

Now if you have a man that is very Loving, Comforting, Kind Husband, Man, Boo etc, Keep pushing and keep trying, to understand what his needs are, and learn what you can accept or won't accept.

Men......You can be putting it down in the bedroom, don't mean your woman won't step out on you. You can pay all of the bills in your house, she can have a nice car, and don't have to work, and you can be very affectionate don't mean crap. A long tool than can run deep, with financial pockets won't keep your woman off her back with other men, if it's in her it is in her, just like a man. I am not making excuses for the behavior of both men and women, but in reality, this is happening daily. First off, most men think, if they are showing affection, and intimacy without sex, is a sign of weakness. A lot of men are not making Love to their woman, they are "Screwing" them, they are not making Love. Ladies you know if he is making love to you are not. Stop fooling yourself, if he is not holding you, caressing you, and doing the things, you know he knows how to please you, that means you have been getting "Screwed". There is a difference in what you get. All women desire to have a nice house or home with a white picked fence, there is a difference. Men stop thinking like the ladies your "Dick" is not the trick or the "Magic Wand" or the solution for a successful relationship.

Ladies and Gentlemen, if you was never have been taught your role as a man or woman, Ladies get with a mature woman who will really show you and tell you what the game is really about. Men you try and connect with a man who thinks with something other than his "Dick". You see there are some of what I call "The Old Heads" who really understand what it is. Let someone teach you, treat you, reach you, and get you to the place you want to be.

Ladies, and gents, evaluate where you are, evaluate where you are going, but most of all evaluate what you want and what you desire to be in your relationship, and strive to continue to understand who you are with.

In closing even if it is not "Sexual" there will always be another man or another woman to provide a listening ear to your mate. This listening ear does not mean that sex is going down, but in the end it can happen, but that is another story from your boy "THE POET" telling some real truth.